insane in the membrane insane in the brain

hmm,
hmm hmm hmm
so my brother has surpassed all of my expectations, i know i have trained him, but i trained him to be a GI on earth, and the dude's moon walking on the moon, different planet all 2gthr. heck gravity still applies. what goes up must come down. i chose to leave america when i was in class 8, choose, yes it was my choice, that same choice was given to my kid bro just the other way around, he went to america in class 8. lots of things i missed out, do i rue about them, yes..... do i wonder what could have been, yes. do i regret is..... no. so where was i, this sibling of mine has already chalked off half of my bucket list. and by the looks of things greater things are to come. i remem my mom got this palm reader once, he looked at both our hands, after mine he said......hmm, porishkar...kintu onek koshto aache, koshto debe. then after my brothers hand, all i could catch that....uff, ie chele ta tope (cannon)...... then both of us were promptly whisked out, for mom to get to the more serious questions. i always wanted to know the answers, but now i think i already do. the lil one is far more tenacious than i ever was, will be. i some how envied what he had going for him, his attitude mostly...... eh. but yeah, i rather rule him than be ruled by him. so ego back on full throttle. poor boy tries to pull a fast one on the old bum, but heh...... been there done that. not at the same age as you are doing it, but done that none the less. this younger generation are fast, they catch up so quick, they fall get back up, and bite that ass and won't let go. its scary. i think evolution skipped a generation, and some how produced this mutated smart mothers..... relentless lil buggers. and its an epidemic of infinite proportions...... lil attitude driven lil punks with smart mouths and an insatiable appetite for arguments and are programmed to do exactly the polar opposite of what you tell em to do. for example lets take sexuality, we were (and this is like generalizing....) born confused (lets say) and then we adhere to the orientation of our fancy. but these new ones are born bi, confused is not in the dictionary, then they move on to one single road, multiple roads....and some prefer to fly :D
somewhere on facebook say khoks write, i am on acid :P
he is not, that i know..... but what strikes me was when i was a munchkin ...... of almost his age, i thought acid was hno3, h2so4.... stuff like that. i knew lsd, but acid is corrosive. chem 101. sigh
where have we come to.
internet is powerful, oh so so so powerful. name me one thing you won't find on the internet. one thing.
you won't find a soul.
slowly we, our younger counterparts are becoming more like drones..... letting go
we need soul. i need soul. soul soul soul.



In mathematics, chaos theory describes the behavior of certain dynamical systems – that is, systems whose states evolve with time – that may exhibit dynamics that are highly sensitive to initial conditions (popularly referred to as the butterfly effect). As a result of this sensitivity, which manifests itself as an exponential growth of perturbations in the initial conditions, the behavior of chaotic systems appears to be random. This happens even though these systems are deterministic, meaning that their future dynamics are fully defined by their initial conditions with no random elements involved. This behavior is known as deterministic chaos, or simply chaos.