its sad to see young people throwing away their lives in something so stupid..... i don't think its rite to loose your life for something this meaningless and devoid of principles... reason and humanity. the sad part is that this will stop but not stop will it..... its been a reality show on tv... and i admit to being hooked..... its just overwhelming..... its chaos
jagge to add a lil colour i had to divert my mind..... and i did this
my return was not what i had expected
my trusty computer....that withstood the 60 kmph tumble to the edge of the teesta cliff is finally showing signs of "wear and tear" (touch wood)....... she has been a true companion ...... i have treated her bad.... infact horribly come to think of it..... the 80 gb hdd still works..... but oh how i used to play catch ..... take it from comp to comp..... she was my movie theater..... my sound dock... undoubtly had the best vedio collection in college....and music too..... oh college.... i remember when she came.... all black.... sad speakers....very sad ...but then pujo was coming..... that would be taken care of.... she was the best looking and best performing for her time...... reigned the college with spunk..... oh the many time i re-installed windows on her..... 3 times a week.... 2 times a day.... she never complained.... she took it.... she knew it was good for her..... the countless viruses and worms i hand picked off of her.....just so that she'd run smoothly... for all the troubles i gave her she showed me the blue screen of death only 3 times.....
i re-installed windows today..... it was sad
soul sucking..... left me feeling drained..... unworthy and distant
the old ddr's have been replaced with a 1gig ram...... and windows will now run on a dedicated 40 gig drive.... i should have done this earlier..... she still didn complain.....
i have kept her thru my hay-days..... and i hope to keep her some more
she be my computer......my first love
i never let anyone touch her.....smooth talked her and used the utmost of delicate touch..... minus the spank here and there ....she liked it like that
did i mention i had to change the power supply..... in layman's terms paati heart transplant .....
she runs.....she'll run
she owend f-503 "hallowed be thy name"
i be happy :)
shout out to the bird!!
and i thought the trip might seem dull
life eh
thats one!
hmm... choosing a title for a post is very unfair.... we think of starting off... do the title justice... we try to make sense of what we initially set out to write.... forget, fumble and ramble on... sigh. so where was i, ...ah yes i have started to think again... what i mean is think too much again. i woke up singin today..... literally. its the mp3 ring tones i tell ya..... keep ringin for the whole song. so i woke up singin.... kinda freaked me out when i finally figured i wasn't singin... sigh i would if i had a voice tho.... senti hoye gelam :D
winter is coming... i like winter.... i like the gloom the cold the smell of winter... i relate to it. i haven't complained about living alone for a while now. i suppose i have gotten used to it and then i remind myself i be not alone anymore.... before moo starts moo-in.... you know i didn mean it like that *mirch* *mirch*..... its just that i am distracted...in a good way. my house...i look at it now is messed up..... really really messed up. i need to fumigate it i think..... what all crap i keep. i complain about having no clothes..... but heck 3 of my 4 beds are dumped with clean/not-so-clean/definately-not-clean clothes..... not to mention the sofa's the chairs.... its like a bomb went off. i feel at home in the chaos..... i can still find things in it..... takes a lil more time but nothing goes lost.
well anyways..... i will be off to orissa soon..... so a blog sabbatical is in the cards.... it started of as a vacation i thought i'd look forward to..... i still do... lil.... i want to go and aw..... but
sigh there's always that but...... you don know what its for..... but.
life would be simpler without the buts and what if's ...... "but" if you look at it close... these words are what free and limit us..... if - i have maintained is the stronget and most powerful 2-letter word on the planet. it allows up to dream.... to think of things we wanted to do "if" shit woked out a different way....
if i win a photo contest
if i become a hot-shot photographer and bleed money
if i figure out...why oh why am i here
if i had dedication along with talent
if i had drive
but bu oh oh oh oh....the but
but there are too many contestants
but almost everyone has a camera...
but i am already here
but you don't get everything
oh-but-ter-fuck i have got drive
sigh: i hope orissa does it for me
as for the rest of you all..... sigh cheers cheers.... life man... this is life
too lil to live for.....too much to let go of.... eh chera geche sigh
In the land of the killers, a sinner's mind is a sanctum
They say music can alter moods and talk to you
Well can it load a gun up for you and cock it too?
Well if it can, then the next time you assault a dude
Just tell the judge it was my fault, and I'll get sued
That's why we sing for these kids that don't have a thing
Except for a dream and a fuckin' rap magazine
Who post pinup pictures on their walls all day long
Idolize their favorite rappers and know all their songs
Or for anyone who's ever been through shit in they lives
So they sit and they cry at night, wishing they die
So they throw on a rap record, and they sit and they vibe
We're nothing to you, but we're the fuckin' shit in their eyes
That's why we seize the moment, and try to freeze it and own it
Squeeze it and hold it, 'cus we consider these minutes golden
And maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
Just let our spirits live on, through our lyrics that you hear in our songs
And we can
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my esteemed non political friend mr. angshuman ghosh..... invited me to a very indian pujo.... me being not indian.... wanted to go and get my indian on... and i went :D
these be peekchars
and i shall stick to peekchars :D
phew.... i thought i'd never get to use that line again.... incase i gave forgotten to mention.... this be my blog spot... mine mine mine mine mine
waaaa
debo na.... bhaaak saala :P
its my blogspot and i can write what i want to .... and you can't stop me
sticks and stones.... boo hoo
i try this.... i'll try to sum up in one one word
sad
insane
very stupid-moronic and blonde ( so i cheated.... act1. roy's blog spot : i cheat )
out-of-proportion
bawaal (full)
hypocritical
rash
.....am i really doin this :D
clap clap.... i have also veered
pictures then.... thats where its at :P
good show
yeah ...initially i didn't write anything..... but now i gots me a lil to write about...
see *respect* to obama and all.... i know the dudes the dude..... seen a lot of his campaign.. well not a lot..... but enough for an indian..... see what i don get is why some ppl one facebook and other sites are all "vote for obama"... i mean all american ppl writin, that i get..... what.. oh what excuse do you indian have to fucking write "vote for obama" when that fuck's never voted for an indian election. i mean what is all this crap man...... i honesty have not voted for any election... aye i am neglecting my citizen's duty..... but i am in my way a lil fair....see i haven't issued my voter's id card....cause even if i do..... my vote will get fixed.... and i know this for a fact.... my dad's voted 6 years in a row..... only the first year did he leave the house to vote..... the next 3 he never left the house.... still "gave" his ballot....the next 2 he's been outside india..... still voted... so i rather not register ..... one less false vote i say that ways...... but but but.... i toh have never followed politics.... a lil but not enough to choose who to vote for... i mean the decision when it comes down to it is pretty difficult..... and i know enough politics to know the democrats are not pro indians.... but like it matters..... bush fucked it for all em republicans..... but but.... if you are an indian and never voted in india and and and are concerned about the american elections..... go fuck yourself .... sideways.... you lying piece of shit no good resident indian...... i hate posers... more than politics...... keepin it real is where its at....... look for the fuck ups in your own house before you go cleaning other peoples mess...... sheesh ship these ppl out man thats all i can say.....
