clicka

its sad that the only one who can take my picture is me.......... when ever someone takes mi pic.... i am always out of focus......but i guess thats my fault.......(high)women and dslr's don mix! i'd say electronics as a whole......lol but then there are females that can click......... anyways the moon was out yesterday......it was amazing....and then the typical bengali laundry...........i swear to you those ain;t mine! just for the sake of innocence.....i'd like to say i live on the ground floor....and for me to go to the roof and hang my laundry......lol that'll be the day......sloth is my poison! lol
and when will the rain stop!!!!!

lost

i saw

simpsons the movie
that 70's show season 8
oceans 13
mr. mrs. smith (again)
oceans 11
oceans 12
oceans 13 (in sequence)
28 days later (freaky)
the lookout
breaking and entering (good...real good)
cashback (honu'll like this one)
Requiem.For.A.Dream
scrubs season 2,3,6.
prison break season 1 n 2
1408 (awsome)
...........i think i am crack addict if crack=movies.......... it get to ye after a while

reality

its a scary thing it is....... you do something and you think in don't matter......but karma is it..... bugger eh......what comes around goes around....thats reality right there......i know it exists but i still don't like it........ it gets you down when you least expect it....... good mood bad mood....don matter...... it get to me......where ever and when ever.......some of my flaws.....well a better way o putting it is one more of my flaws..... but i suppose that cuts and bruises remind you.... a spotless shirt is damed new if not wrinkled ...if not stained........ new ie on touched ie waiting for its journey to begin....... i'd rather be a smelly worn out shirt more than on any rack....... but i guess i already am........ buggering reality......... i see things that others don't.....hear what most can't.....i speak to a few who can understand.......feel absolutely nothing except the everyday mundane ticking of the clock....... tick tock tick tock..... the random sound of the shutter opening and closing.... other than that its smelly tattered and wrinkled for me......and i have to be sick cause some how its dosen't bother me..... i mean it should and i really want it to.......but it doesn't......i never changed being me....never for me....my future or or rite now.........its nothing to be proud of.....but i guess its to late to say i was born in the wrong century.........

well i'll leave you with some picture which i'll take rite after i write this last word........ i'd call it a glimpse.

rain

sunday........sunday was supposedly to be a good day....the meteor shower was supposta start from 11 at nite and for about two hours.......and i was stupid enough to charge my camera battery....ready my tripod......and hunt for the key to the roof... i say hunt cause well you really have to hunt for tiny things in my room........ and waddya know it rained the whoe friggin nite yesterday........my plans washed downs the gutter as usual....... me pissed as ever cursed the weather .....chugged a coupla o beers and went to the next best thing........ i saw " knocked up"...."the reaping"......"transformers"...."bourne ultimatum"........"surfs up" "ratoullie- or what ever its called"........"skinwalkers" "I.Now.Pronounce.You.Chuck.And.Larry"............ oh lets just say i made up for all the lost time.....and now there is aboutr 4 stairs worth of water clogged rite outside my front door....... my ciggy stock runnin low...... i think i gotta a take a dip!

bangla te kotha

achha ei blog ta aamibangla te likhchi kenoje je pupblic der saathe aami aaj raate chilam tara "item" jai hik.....aami cassini's division er follower.... becasu of theri music and the band members themselves.......aami o der ke chini so to speak.......jodio shobai ke na......kintu rahul da'r saathe jogajog ache......lead vocaltist..... jai hok....ei blog ta oder byapar e na....kintu oder ekta gig er bypar e .......bangla keno je.....je shob forsha chamra der saatahe aalap holo abt 35 tader kke aami ei site er add diye chi ....onek phototgraphy ethusiast chilo.....obbosho meye'ra majority....tai oder ke je aami khisti marchi sheita janete chai ni.....poe hoyeto labh hotepare.... :P....pati baggali buddhi..... jai hok aajke sam bollo ki rahul da ra gig korbe....onek din live bhalo music shunini bole aami game chila,..........kintu joknon bollo 35 forsh chamra der jonne gid and chele meye ratio kom......aami to hell and heaven pariye jete raji......... kitu je jinicsh o bolte bhule gechilo ki....group ta "shurch group....... all ideas janlar barire diye beshe gelo....kintu ei shob aami venue te pouchanor por jante pari........ so in a hotel jar booze er licence nei........ i got high on music only.... prolly for the first time ever....while shobai high on bhogoban chilo :P he he.......aji hok.....muckh to diye che bhogoban..... aami ket o marlam..... onek jon er virtual add o nilam......and dilam... kintu oder ke na janiye eita likhte e hoto aaami aaro input debo pore..... kenoje i kinda made up for all the things i cud'nt ger....and aamije eto ta likhechi is very amazing....... baki ta jogot e ferot ashar por likhbo.... kintui had fun! pati fun..... no impurities fun.... felt good

reminiscence

Staind - Outside


And you.....Could bring me to my knees...Again.
All the times.....When I could beg you please...In vein.
All the times.....When I felt insecure...For you
And I leave.....My burdens at the door...

But I'm on the outside, I'm lookin in.
I can see through you, see your true colors.
Cuz inside your ugly, your ugly like me.
I can see through you, see to the real you.

All the times.....That I felt like this won't end...It's for you.
And I taste.....What I could never have...It was from you.
All the times...That I've cried...My intentions...Were full of pride.
But I watse.....More time than anyone...

But I'm on the outside, I'm lookin in.
I can see through you, see your true colors.
Cuz inside your ugly, your ugly like me.
I can see through you, see to the real you.

All the times.....That I've cried...
All this wasted....It's all inside...
And I feel.....All this pain...
Stuffed it down.....It's back again...
And I lie.....Here in bed...
All alone.....I can't mend...But I feel...Tomorrow will be ok.

I'm on the outside and I'm lookin in.
I can see through you, see your true colors.
Cuz inside your ugly, your ugly like me.
I can see through you, see to the real you.

hmm

girls.......jesus.....one hell of a complicated beings...... i mean some times i wonder if we are (ie males and females) are the same species or not...... i had done a bad thing to a good person one time....but that bad thing had prolly helped her and it was a very calculated bad thing i did....... and after 3 years i finally had to get all the guilt off mi chest......so i say sorry abt five times and all the while say it was my fault.....and the replies i get so in conclusive.....i mean if it were a guy we'd prolly be having our second beer by the time i got my third sorry out..... we forget and forgive....not to tarnish all woman kind....but i have met females with "male" mentalities....and some with extra female psychosis....koto je khisti khabo ie blog e jonne aami jaani....but i suppose there are some who get what i am saying........but then again i'd have to say cat fights are quite entertaining and "informative"..........
i guess i am tired of all the cliches......and facades.... i mean show me one female without the excess emotional baggage....... and i'll show you a guy who'll cry watching jerry mcguire...... oh and i forgot to mention all the freggin gossip......i mean on occasions we men do it to but not over do it...... mountains outta mole hills..... crap crap......and the thought of marrying one some day scares the shit out of me..........all the emotional BS...... i dunno why i am writing all this.... i guess i have nothing better to do.....or i am really pissed in both senses of the word......... adam and eve.....more like adam and evil....... who wanted the the apple.......who seduced adam to get it...... some say that women can survive without men........ yeah..... they prolly can....but we'd have more fun!!!!! this is such a juvenile blog.....

lemme put up the pictures............ i took.............to change the topic ( so discreet nah!)