run away.

what does one do when he knows what he has to do.......but doesn't want to do it.......there are so many things here.....love...pain....angst.....depression... .loneliness.........conversations that echo in my mind......i was readin about solitude... its supposta help somehow.....inner self..focus....and with all those things.....my head rings with the same question over and over again..." why don't you come along with us? "......at that time i blatantly said no.... the reasons i had one i hate beer.....and in america if you hate beer well lets just say weird..... lol...having been there before i kinda thought i'd be the same..... cold and windy.... i had another reason....... which i never shared..... i regret that the most.....but in the end i never wanted to go inside..... i hate the human brain cause when it gets stuck with one thought it reverberates in that empty skull over and over again.... everyone i know is lookin...on the prowl.......to catch the find the missin piece of their so called life..........lookin for some one to share...supposedly.
never have i had the urge to got out there and actually cast myself in the pool to see if any fishes bite....... but i have a better time watchin from the bank..... seein the worms on hooks ...enticin all those fishies.... the thing that they don't understand that they'r the bait......ironical know...... whenever in a family gathering and since parents are outta the city....i do get extra care.....no complains there... but i also get those probing question.....but in a more direct and discreet but open way....... one of the elders.....from the corner of the room winks and seats you beside her.....she makes this curious face and says......."aache (wink wink)"...... i have the same answer everytime......a snigger.."no....but you'll be the first to know"............ the thing is if you have someone you get interrogated
....but what surprises me more is theres more interrogation if you don have any.....
i remember my brother sayin once...." i don believe you don have a girlfriend".... and no the bugger has two wrapped around on both side....and a third just in case... he he.....i saw namesake yesterday......heh



well its safe to say hillary swank is in a spankin treak.... i saw freedom writer's... and the last movie that made me shed tears was Finding Neverland 3 am in the mornin in college.......(note to mamba....ye did it to.....and then baghban...... har har).....in my defence...i was high and well the movie is really good..... funny thing is that its not a tear jerker......but i suppose every-fuckin-one can damn well relate to it....or at least i can.....i remember there was a time i sat in those chairs...