frig.....frig frig firg

hmm.....shud i start cribbin now or shall i wait for the middle of the post....where ppl generally slip the crib in...... nah...i start from the second line......if this infact ends up as the second line..... the weather.....the friggin weather.....when i go to bed...i don wanna sleep.....when its time to get up... i don wanna get up...... is it me or is the cool shift shiftin already......i hate weather changes.....thats cause the only illness that i am prone to get is the cold.....not to jinx my immune system....but its always been the cold thats toppled me..... no measels nor mumps can get to me......but the friggin cold always does...... and i believe cold on cold gets rid of the cold......don't work that way it seems... tonsils throb.....i dunno why/how they are still workin.... i am surviving on 6 extension wire's... see i kinda....well...managed to brake the switch board in the most important room in my house.....ie the room with the comp/tv/closest to the bath-room/fridge...and other stuff..... and in the process of savin money...i tried to salvage the situation.....only to short circuit the entire room..... you think drinkin and drivin is bad...... never be a cheappu when not one but 7 switches are in play and you can't tell the blue wire from the red wire.....that is until you accidentally touch it.....its sad to say that this isn't gonna be the last time...one of my friends bought a new phone.....with 3.2 MP camera and optical zoom....in a friggin cell phone......i mean......very J...i have books to return...kintu the idea of goin all the way to camac street is killin me...i mean....i have lost all touch with that part of the city....when i practically matured there and whereabouts....city center is a bad bad place...pujo'r bazar has set me off quite number of K's .....i shud have been cheap with my gifts, i am sayin cheap too many times...frig.. generally am not a cheap-o..kintu sheesh...i went over board with the spendings... although as the pujo goes on....i shall be reimbursed from time to time....moms sick again to thats another thing on my mind.....dad's off to las vegas for a 5 day conference....i won't comment on that....(lucky %#@#@).... by younger brother is sendin me videos of his school cheer-leaders... its nice to see cheer-leaders actually cheerin for a change......and was really glad that he sent me that instead of what i thought he was sendin me...... thank god.... i still like to think he's got a wiff of innocence still about him.....but the next mail proved me wrong....i am afraid i have taught my little brother too much.....i am starting to think of him as a better lookin and updated version of me.....oh almost forgot...with a full set of hair......... but i suppose i still have age on my side.... the nine year gap we have seems to be closing quickly.....i want to go off to the village .....find peace see green....fields of paddy i mean..... huh...its that time of the year already.....the incense....the lights......the aaroti's....the thick smoke screen of the dhunochi's......the sindur mixed with mustard oil stains all over the dhuti...... mom's not gonna be there to curse me when ever i wipe my fingers on the dhuti.....when i get blood smeared all over it....dad's sarcasm.....his utter silence when he know's he's drunk too much......then actually trying to open up and talkin to me as an adult....and me actually having a hefty mature conversation with him.....him drunk me zonked....the spit fights with that runt of a younger brother...a family affair without my family...huh...frig frig frig....aah well as long as the smoke rises from the sticks of reason...this epiphany will continue ....


my obituary is gonna say this.....