departure and arrival

so, mom left, the grandmother left. alone again. i like it. the "solitude", it calms me..... i have again got back to the way i live. i got my routine back. lots of things are going on in and about. life's probably not on the right track but i am facing the right direction. i just need to get moving.....fast. money seems to be the problem. it comes pretty fast...the problem is it goes away faster. march promises to bring a good time. i am quite looking forward to it. the sunday counseling sessions are going great..... it insightful and a means to vent. like minded individuals if not all, but there were nice surprises.......the whole deal challenges me in a cerebral way. what better to test your skills with a shrink, whats better is that there are two. i am in a way studying to be one o those profile-dudes, like on criminal minds and bones, cool stuff. its like a super power to get inside someones head and mess with them. hee haw. not that i would....... intentionally. i got gate crashed yesterday , thought only one cous was comin....... but the whole lil league showed up. i hope i never ever have to ruin another sunday writing movies and pictures for kins. sigh what a major waste of time...... mostly. i have got myself a pipe. only tobacco people.....sheesh. :P the thing is the tobacco smells so good...so good. almost like a perfume, if i could smear it all over the body, i would. oh dad will be coming 21st....this 21st. i get to see parents in installments. which is cool...... you get to exploit both of them separately.....heh, sigh i sometimes make my self crack. this other house deal has got me up the wall. concrete evidence, apparently aint enough to swing a case your way. we watch too many legal shows........ i have dreams that i am disputing the property case like in boston legal...."danny crain.......still undefeated"......
indian courts, they take time and bribes, then some more time....a lil more.... come on its only time..... achha ok 5 more mins....2?! aah forget it, you all have no patience.... its a civil case..... go forget about it the first couple o years.... and then we'll get back to it...... it be like nothing ever happened.... brand new. mother fuckers!
our lawyer himself said, and i quote, "we too are crooks, crooks that follow and understand rules......civilized crooks if you may"
have you ever felt that vein on your head pop......0i just wanted to smack him silly. "ki bolli....(thash-boom-bam-kapaow-zing) abar bol"
sigh what a year, what 23 deaths?! is it bad if you can recall all the dead bodies you say this year?! they don't haunt me. i just see them when i close my eyes at times... you know hoping they spring to life....share some vital info and plop back dead. you know like " oi....i hid 800k under that tree, beside that fence on that lawn..... take care of it"
you all think i'd be shocked, scared...... no no, no no no no no, i be cpr on his ass to find out which tree, which fence and which fucking lawn.
sigh if life were that easy, it is that crazy, i just lost out on the easy part.

i want to be a treasure hunter. well a pirate. i will keep most of it for myself. first help yourself and then go being robin hood. i will be a kind and ethical.... yet coldblooded and ruthless buccaneer.
all hand on deck you vile filthy vermin's..... the winds be sweet and the sea calm.... set sail for tortuga.....where's my rum!!!!!!!!!!!
this is my story na, single malt.....where is my single malt!!!!!!!!!!