my 100th post

sigh......
here goes....this is not something special as i thought it would be.... but i mean it could be i dunno yet....all i know is i wanted to write something...and this post shall go where ever it wants to go...


change is good.....change is scary .......change is required......ignorance is bliss...this i believe but only for so long.... so moral being ppl who have it in them change and the rest wait for it to happen.... and then there are some who avoid it..... can't blame em...... they say the grass is greener on the other side.... i refute.... can you see the other side?!?! cause if you can't..... only a moron will go to the other side.... one may say faith/hope ..... but belief only stays with for you so long.....
and its funny how we choose to look at certain things and offer differentials and then we turn away from the other things and act as if they never happened...... i value time.... time well spent is good enough in my books... the definition of that varies with ppl..... now the trouble comes when you try to decide what was time well spent and time wasted...... me being me don think time is wasted..... cause either you area an audience in a conversation hence increasing your knowledge base.....else you take part in it...in which case you engage your mind and make it process variables and compute stuff........ and then there is the rest..... resting is never a waste of time..... its just a means of gettin more time.... i have problems.....the whole world has problems.... and and wise ass piece o shit who claims they have none what so ever...and are content..... well i say cheers.... good for you.....and lemme know when you wake up.... i could give you some pointers. in a way i think i am blessed because i have seen a lotta shit go down..... good stuff bad stuff..... ok ok stuff..... but yeah almost everything..... almost...... but then sometimes this voice in my head taunts me..... too much information is bad.... its so so so so so so so bad.... the more you know.... the more the endings a story can have.... the more the routes one can take to get from one place to another....... the more you think! think.... i hate that word..... i do it too often for my own good..... once i was happy..... unnaturally so...... but happy....... then i thought about why.....and then again.....then some more.... and guess what..... happy went bye bye..... and back to old mundane self.... why theke i went to how......to when to why again....momentarily stopped at what the hell.....went back to how and got stuck on if..... when you want something one should really go and get it till stocks lasts that is...... but for those mellow-ed out conspiracy theorists... who keep wondering..... to need or not to need...... dumb asses!!!! but .. but but but... i stand by em..... as in... in some weird way there is come sense that lies with their beliefs ... like the saying its never a one way street. that i know is true. by the way.....my latest job is pooper scooper for d'ice...... maal ta khaye and haage..... what a life! shucks. and did i not mention the constant pampering..... some times i feel like running away from it all.... and i know i can... but i have too many responsibilitie`s.... things that a 30 year ol schmuck shud be doing which i have been doin since 22...... i was given the illusion of freedom...... and as usual i jumped at it.... but the excess baggage is just way way way too much... i feel bad even saying this but its true...... there are ppl who have this kinda things thrust on them for grave reasons..... my heart goes out to em... it is not easy not at all..... but i choose it.... what excuse do i have.....
this being my 100th post and all....... i also am shocked i lasted this long...... this being my 3rd attempt at a blog ...... but i am glad i stayed around.....

i have regained status quo :
i am a 24 year ol dude with a cat hand many hats..... and still have nothing to show for it