Tuesday, April 28, 2009

i hate this weather!!

i hate it i hate it i hate it.... i wasn't going to crib about the weather this time. honest. but the friggin heat melted my chocolate bar on my table... just behind the lappie.... made a puddle of chocolate on my semi dirty table..... i licked it off none the lessdripped on my lappie ka keys.... licked em em off!!!
had it smeared all my hands.... licked em off..... hot chocolate this be. sigh. i turned around i was alone. alone licking off chocolate off my dirty hands..... with a huge guilt ridden face.... and a heart that could not take the heat anymore....
today was the day rishi roy wasted some chocolate. he tried to salvage as much as he could whilst cursing the heat under every breath.....
i have been hurt today... hurt i say
the heat made my chocolate melt away
i long for the rain...sprinkles of water
but all i see is the sun, the air getting hotter
oh how i long for the smell of earth so wet
tomorrow is going to be hot, no rain i bet
:(

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

rain rain oh where art thao rain

there was a time when rain was the kolkata thing, along with the lingering humidity thing. but now.... the rain has evaporated..... the humidity has occupied the space left. sigh. i haven't complained about the weather like this ever.... i mean i have cribbed. but this is like nekami....and i hate nekami. i now think that i would have been better in a dead end job, no ambition....... just the friggin ac.
sigh
i think life is gettin to me again. i have to remem to keep a journal, cause i think this happened the same time last year, and i dont remem it.
i need a gun. to shoot myself. this is what i'd do, take the gun..... fill it up with ice cold water and shoot my eyes out. for those of you who didn get that, i was referring to a water pistol, look up holi.
i want to go to chicago..... where the parents are.... its cold there.... very cold...... sigh.

Monday, April 20, 2009

april

sigh. april. it hot hot hot hot hot hot.... one hot woman i gots to take picture of. sweating she was...poor thing...... and me too btw (poor thing). the skys are empty i say....empty and the earth drier than a 70 year old woman on her second menopause. what is happening........... this can't be global warming, its global melt down. i mean if people before us fucked it up for us (weather wise) i mean we too should fuck it up too, right. its the order of things. lol. no but seriously...... all you fuckers releasing cfc's into the air and fucking it up for the rest of up..... stop it. or buy me an ac, and pay the bill also. or invite me over a lil more. you know sharing.... thats the real order. humanity. but on a true eco-friendly manner, i will give preference to a pool rather than an ac anyday. i do care about the environment. i want some rain. oh god please make it rain.....pretty please.... if not for me, then for those poor kisans man, for their crop...... and as you spray them with heavenly rain.... just spit a few in my direction.......not buckets, rather a lil lil shower.... like i was here, for not that long..... but here. that smell i long for.... the smell of wet earth, you know the temperature will drop as soon as that smell finds its way to yer nostrils.......


the bird is awake............ the ac calls.... aaaaaaaaa ceeeeeeeeeeeee,
adios loco pandehos.......

Friday, April 3, 2009

kolkata











well back to the city, not with a bang, but back none the less. sigh. the weather is just mad, M-A-D mad.... its hot, sweaty, did it mention hot. dilli was cooler..... temperature wise. i kinda now think a lil more time in dilli wouldn't have hurt. leaving the city never comes to mind. but when you do get a chance to get away from it all...even if its like a shit pot like dilli, the change is well worth it. met old friends...... went to humayun's tomb, purana quila and matka pir. will we grateful if some one actually knew something about the last one. its just one whack place with matkas on the tree. my uncle says ki them matka's be full of alcohol and then drained at the base of the tree and then the matkas hung on the branches. (i don believe the whole thing). ooo dilli airport e the remaining time i was going through the dutyfree shops..... sigh i just wished i had my passport on me. sigh sigh. what bargains i missed. chivas, glenlevit sigh the works. all there for the taking. russians seems to be the big thing in the capital. seems the ruski's get it on everywhere. and if one were to believe the ruski's well, then aishwariya rai was a poor bihari woman, who slept her way to the stop. and by sleep i don mean the snoring kind. kinda ironic when the ruski's givin you information on someone's sex life during sex..... i mean this be pnpc to another level....and its not just us. bideshi ra o pnpc kore. ki sad. hee haw. my desk top is kaput. so most of my work is now being done on the lappie. and i hate windows vista......just hate it. xp did me fine. too much show on this one.
had one of those same ol friggin lame ass jacked conversation with the uncle. i still didn give in. these people who have closed their minds off are dangerous. they try to convert you, preach to you. 24 i be. big boy by most standards. its just that you wish that friendly uncle never was friendly and was just the uncle. i do appreciate their wisdom, but not when its miss directed. tell me what to do in life, not who to or how to get it on. thats my job. getting it on i am, and i shall. this gyan thing is dangerous......if you give it, you must at times get it. but there is always a line...... i prefer staying zonked and seeing things from there.



i just realized, 2 days i gave this post. sigh i am 25 now. 25 :(
2-fuckin-5 years...just like that...... woosh...gone lost, forgotten..... what now what now

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

dilli airport

i be connected via wifi baaabeh, dilli international air port e. ki cool this is. i be downloading porn and bones and so many other things....ki illegal. i lowe this feeling. i gots some money in dilli. i have spent already. well not all of it. coming back to cal reminds me how much i lowe the city. its just the smell. i just hope the weather changes..... not the weather even, the humidity. sigh. hot summer days are generally spent in the bird's net. nice and cool it is. its time for sleep overs again. yay. jagge. i like.
will be home soon. yay. kolkata airport e saala wifi na thakle jhul.
cheers